Days. Time. These are funny concepts to me. Some people could care less what day or time it is, completely absorbed in the now. Some people care greatly about what day or time it is because they have so much to accomplish and they worry it will not get finished. We look behind us at our past, we look forward in anticipation for the future, and we see ourselves in the present, living.
I must admit that I've been struggling with this concept of time. If any of you know me closely, you very well know that I am someone who get bored easily. I am enamored with something or some place, but if I spend my days with that one thing or place, I become restless. I'm ready to move on to the next adventure, to experience other things and places. Lately, I've been finding myself getting bored. It's not entirely due to Kolkata, because I believe that Kolkata is a city that would never bore you, but that's just the thing. It's the city that will never bore you. However, if you live in a certain part or walk the same streets or go to the same places, it starts to seem monotonous. The splendor and charm are forgotten, and you are darting your eyes looking for other distractions.
Darjeeling was a beautiful vacation, and I still wish I was there because it was a change of pace. It was completely different from Kolkata, and it was extremely exciting. It left me jazzed, ready for more. Returning to Kolkata has been quite difficult, and it's only been a day. We become so busy with school, service learning, homework, etc that we rarely have time to explore where we actually live. I'm not only referring to the famous sites such as the Victoria Memorial or the Marble Palace, etc, I am referring more to the random streets and alleyways, the dive restaurants that leave you wanting more. We've had a couple of opportunities to explore, and I have loved every single minute of it, but it is not enough. I understand the responsibilities that we have to school and to service learning, but I wish there was more time. So that's how we get back to this concept of time.
Time is encroaching upon me, because, well I might as well say it, it's nearly April. And not that I am counting down the days, although I am excited to go home, but it's only a month really, which just doesn't seem real. I know that I will not leave Kolkata with regrets, because I honestly don't believe in regrets. They bother me too much and they take up too much of my brain space, that I just leave them be. I'm not worried about regretting not going certain places or doing certain things, I am more concerned with now, with the time that I have right now, resting in my lap.
I saw a quote today, because I've been soaking up quotes like syrup on pancakes, and I couldn't agree more with it. The part I loved the most said, "I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take..." by John Burroughs. Don't ask me who that is, because I don't know, nor will I pretend to. But I love what he said. I still go to bed with thoughts speeding across, desperately wanting my attention because they had escaped their chance during the day. There is so much to see and so much to do, but more importantly there is so much to live. So here is what I proposing to myself, and then telling you which is kind of strange now that I think about it, even if I get bored at times or wish that I could go explore, wherever I am at, I am going to soak up the people. I am going to get lost in thinking of everything that I've done, and I will get to the places and things that I will get to, and India will be marvelous. It won't prevent the boredom, because I am easily prone to that, but it will help. Leave it to me to become bored in a city where things and places and people are constantly changing.
I must admit that I've been struggling with this concept of time. If any of you know me closely, you very well know that I am someone who get bored easily. I am enamored with something or some place, but if I spend my days with that one thing or place, I become restless. I'm ready to move on to the next adventure, to experience other things and places. Lately, I've been finding myself getting bored. It's not entirely due to Kolkata, because I believe that Kolkata is a city that would never bore you, but that's just the thing. It's the city that will never bore you. However, if you live in a certain part or walk the same streets or go to the same places, it starts to seem monotonous. The splendor and charm are forgotten, and you are darting your eyes looking for other distractions.
Darjeeling was a beautiful vacation, and I still wish I was there because it was a change of pace. It was completely different from Kolkata, and it was extremely exciting. It left me jazzed, ready for more. Returning to Kolkata has been quite difficult, and it's only been a day. We become so busy with school, service learning, homework, etc that we rarely have time to explore where we actually live. I'm not only referring to the famous sites such as the Victoria Memorial or the Marble Palace, etc, I am referring more to the random streets and alleyways, the dive restaurants that leave you wanting more. We've had a couple of opportunities to explore, and I have loved every single minute of it, but it is not enough. I understand the responsibilities that we have to school and to service learning, but I wish there was more time. So that's how we get back to this concept of time.
Time is encroaching upon me, because, well I might as well say it, it's nearly April. And not that I am counting down the days, although I am excited to go home, but it's only a month really, which just doesn't seem real. I know that I will not leave Kolkata with regrets, because I honestly don't believe in regrets. They bother me too much and they take up too much of my brain space, that I just leave them be. I'm not worried about regretting not going certain places or doing certain things, I am more concerned with now, with the time that I have right now, resting in my lap.
I saw a quote today, because I've been soaking up quotes like syrup on pancakes, and I couldn't agree more with it. The part I loved the most said, "I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take..." by John Burroughs. Don't ask me who that is, because I don't know, nor will I pretend to. But I love what he said. I still go to bed with thoughts speeding across, desperately wanting my attention because they had escaped their chance during the day. There is so much to see and so much to do, but more importantly there is so much to live. So here is what I proposing to myself, and then telling you which is kind of strange now that I think about it, even if I get bored at times or wish that I could go explore, wherever I am at, I am going to soak up the people. I am going to get lost in thinking of everything that I've done, and I will get to the places and things that I will get to, and India will be marvelous. It won't prevent the boredom, because I am easily prone to that, but it will help. Leave it to me to become bored in a city where things and places and people are constantly changing.
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