Lately, I have been gaining nostalgia. I was trying with much effort not to do the whole, "This is the last time I'll go to class here" or "This is the last time I'll be at this temple", blah, blah, blah. I did that once in high school, and I didn't care to repeat it. However, lately it's been slipping off the tongue more so than I'd like. It is difficult to not think that way when it all seems so real all of a sudden. I think back to the times that I was first at a certain place and compare it to the present, and it astounds me how much my perception and experience has changed. For instance, today we went to the Dakshineswar Temple, which I went to with Kaka and three of my roommates at the very beginning of our lives in Kolkata. I went with one of my roommates and three other women from my group today, and it was such a bewildering experience. Rita and I got there quite easily now that we both can handle transportation, it didn't seem daunting at all. We even accidentally rode in the men's compartment on the train on the way back, and that didn't even phase us. It was a deja vu experience, to say the least, and it is pretty awesome to see how much I've grown.
What I've realized lately is that I've begun to get used to Kolkata, as much as a person can. Obviously, I continue to learn new things and discover how incorrect I am, but I've grown accustomed to it's face (sorry for the My Fair Lady reference, I couldn't help it) and the whims and trials it offers. I've begun to recognize a familiarity that I have with Kolkata. It's almost that occasion when you are in another place and you begin to sniff until you find that this place smells very much like your grandma's basement. Maybe you've never had that experience, but I have quite often. India is, metaphorically of course, beginning to smell like my grandma's basement. As time continues to pass, the more and more my relationship with Kolkata is similar to that of an old and dear friend. A friend that has pushed and empowered you to grow immensely, while still accepting you for who you are. Kolkata has ripped me apart and broken me down countless times, but thank God for that. Thank God that I've been blessed enough to experience that and to learn so much more about the world I live in and who I am becoming as a person.
What I've realized lately is that I've begun to get used to Kolkata, as much as a person can. Obviously, I continue to learn new things and discover how incorrect I am, but I've grown accustomed to it's face (sorry for the My Fair Lady reference, I couldn't help it) and the whims and trials it offers. I've begun to recognize a familiarity that I have with Kolkata. It's almost that occasion when you are in another place and you begin to sniff until you find that this place smells very much like your grandma's basement. Maybe you've never had that experience, but I have quite often. India is, metaphorically of course, beginning to smell like my grandma's basement. As time continues to pass, the more and more my relationship with Kolkata is similar to that of an old and dear friend. A friend that has pushed and empowered you to grow immensely, while still accepting you for who you are. Kolkata has ripped me apart and broken me down countless times, but thank God for that. Thank God that I've been blessed enough to experience that and to learn so much more about the world I live in and who I am becoming as a person.





